Last night, I said “No thank you” to pizza. I will give you all a minute to digest that concept……There was pizza, freshly baked, covered in cheesy deliciousness, and I chose not to eat it. I ate a salad instead. And, for the first time in a long time, I wasn’t resentful or feeling deprived. I just didn’t want to eat it. I didn’t want to feel gross afterwards. Andrea: 1 – Temptation: 0
Today I was CRAVING a turkey sandwich. And not just any turkey sandwich, a turkey sandwich, with the meat, freshly sliced off of the whole roasted turkey, a little cranberry sauce, some lettuce, onions all pilled together in a sandwich full of deliciousness. But I didn’t want the bread. So, I ordered the sandwich, from my little work café, on a wrap. And I asked for extra veggies. And then I ate the sandwich, with a fork, but threw the tortilla wrap away. I had all of the flavor that I was desiring, without the carb crash that usually accompanies that sandwich. And once again, I felt like I was in control. I felt powerful. Andrea: 2 – Temptation: 0
I am a lover of food. I love the flavors, the textures, the experience of food. And this little game I have been playing with myself, of trying to eat the things that I LOVE while still being healthy has actually become fun. I am learning how to make things in new, healthier ways, full of flavor, without added crap. It is a remarkable feeling, one I haven’t had in quite some time, to feel like I am in control of my body again.
Today I pulled out a pair of pants, from my closet that I haven’t worn in four years. And I am wearing them to work. I have many cute, still fashionable items of clothing that I haven’t worn in years, staring at me from the dark corners of my closet, just waiting for their second chance too. And although I have a long way to go to wear many of those little pieces of fashion heaven again, it is nice to know that I WILL wear them again.
Woooohoooo! So proud of you!!
Posted by: AndreAnna (Primal Matriarch) | July 29, 2010 at 01:36 PM